STYLO!!

SO today was my first day working in AutoCAD, the Drafting program I am learning to use in my Engineering class. I drew a few circles, some lines, and a cresent moon HAHA, needless to say I am not very skilled with AutoCAD YET. But I am definatly having fun with that class, if nothing else Prof. O'Neill is freakin HILARIOUS.

Today was also quite possibly the last time I'll ever see my ex girlfriend (and fiance). In a long drawn out business, her pay checks were getting direct deposited into my bank account so it would be easier, well when she left me she either forgot or didn't bother to change that so I had to drive around and get her check then get it to her. I think for the most part I am extremely disappointed with how things ended between me and her, over a text message no less HAHA. Yeah

I have discovered closure in a number of ways although Idk if I'll get over the want for answers any time soon, Yeah you heard me right. She left me without any explanation (and AGAIN, over a TEXT) Something sound craptastic here doesn't it? I am quoting John in saying that HAHA

Meh, She is moving to a town in Oklahoma called Claremore so today is probably the last time I'll ever see her again. She doesn't even live in the same town as me but, eh who knows.

We were planning to get married, she didn't know it but I already had the engagement ring picked out, the problem was me finding a store that sold that particular band design. In the surrounding 4 states only two of them had it and they were at least 6 hours either way, AND I couldn't talk to anyone bout it without being there at the store, convenient right. BLAAH, so I am done talknig about this

Sooo depressing, but I guess if I never get it out I'll never get better. maybe thats why kids feel better after they puke. TOTALLY different scenario but hey same basic principle right?

So this week I also started working again and this week was also when time went in...WHO THE HECK SET THIS UP, So I will only get paid for 4 hours worth of work I did in 2 days. Who's idea is all this anyway.

SO I have been listening to alot of Skillet today, and I have learned I cant post their lyrics on FB without some people askin if I am ok. Funny part about it is that these are the people who have never seen me bad, if I am hurting trust me you won't hear bout it on FB, yeah I may post stuff bout how ticked I am at stupidity. But If I am truly hurting I have other ways of telling the people I actually want to know about it lol.

SO there's this girl right (Here we go, first depression then anger now love, we should cover ALL emotions) She knows most of this stuff cuz we talk alot and, it's just easy for me to talk to her. Idk if anything will happen between us (Relationship wise) but I'm ok with that, we're both takin life a day at a time and I'll tell you, I can truthfully say I would rather never date her and be friends forever than date her too quickly, foul up, and her hate me forever. I do care for her don't misinterpret that. But it's cuz I care for her that I'm gonna do it this way, and I know she understands cuz we talked it over

I cannot stand my family anymore can I say that. I'm sorry but I love my mom but the rest of them, need to seriously grow up because I'm getting tired of putting up with the verbal (and sometimes physical) abuse I have to endure just to take care of business there. And I say that because legally I am an adult and they are minors so I can't do anything and my parents wont do anything, I mean me and my sister samantha never got along as kids, but she never stabbed me with a pen I will leave it at that

I feel like I am passing out at my keyboard so I will cut this off, I may post tomorrow but I will be busy praying for a miracle to pass Algebra so that I can actually graduate this spring from college.